This has been the hardest few days. I dont know where to start this but this will be long. I want you to know that i forgave you years ago for all the abuse you put us thru as a child. I walked around many years with guilt and feeling like I ruined my sister and brothers life for taking them away from you. I was tired dad I raised the kids from the time they were little cause you had to work and donna was gone, I was only a kid and i couldnt fix everything. I have had to do things for you that no child should have ever had to do. I had to make a choice to save their life. You were grown we were not. I so thought that giving you a granchild would change you, it wasnt Gods plan yet. Thank God for people like Sandy and Lawerence whom stood by you and help starighten you out. Thank God for the Lena Pope staff and your brother Wayne and Aunt Nancy for taking my sister and brother in and streaching the walls of your tiny home like they did all the time. It took awhile and you got things under control again. Everyone saw all the changes. You got jr back finally. God chose to plant Angels path in Cleburne. God decided you needed someone to make you crazier than you were so Momma Juanelle comes along with my Pink Power Ranger, my new sister Kayen. Soon id have a new mom and a new sisters. The family starting coming together. I spent many more years jealous becuase my sisters that they had a damn good dad, angry that they never understood my shoes i had to strap on every day. Family grew we got to meet dads first daughter and her husband and kids, it didnt go great God had other plans. more changes.... things that begin sometimes must end no more happy marriage for me I grew up very slow with four kids to try and not screw up.I did the best I could im not perfect. I went back to school, I made something of myself to take care of my kids. All of the years I prayed for the perfect dad he was there the green eyed monster didnt let me see. I wouldnt have graduated without him driving me to and from school every day for 9 months to become a CNA. These rides I ticked him off and drove him crazy becuase Id sing JESUS SONGS to him all the way home. He even threanted to quit picking me up if i sang one more song lol The devil had more snares and toils for me to land in and God pulled me thru. He weaved people I needed into mylife to continue to shape me. But he continue to weave them into his life also. All the years I prayed dad would turn to God and seek his forgivness it happened at his house with a pastor two friends and mom. I stood in his kitchen not long after this talking with my mom and listening to mr gene and dad speak. It rang clear in my head my dad was reading a bible...... 6 years ago we almost lost dad to an anersym, God wasnt finished with him yet........ More memories to be made and things to cherish. Unfortunatly Things changed not long ago. and dad and mom split up. No more family feast on the weekends, no more cheese and chips with sister. Life just kept us from being a unit.... Three years ago I stood next to a bed and almost lost my bonus mom, I had to be the big girl to call my power ranger and tell her things looked bad. GOD again had other plans God was stronger than she. I prayed Kayen would never have to call me with news like that. that was the hardest thing in my life ive done was to repeat the words the doc said she might not make it back. I asked God to make sister stronger for when and if she had to make the call she could. I want everone to know that she stood by him and never failed him. im so proud of my sister. I know our daddy is super proud of her just as he was of all of us. Gods plan was finished and God saw fit to take him home. Theres alot of people who loved our dad and he loved you. You will notice this letter has a lot of changes in it. Im asking each one of you to not let the passing of our daddy turn you away. please call please still come around for he isnt here on earth but in our hearts and laughter.